There are starving children in Africa!

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*this image is not mine: from http://www.familyfunshop.com/do-you-clean-your-plate.htm

Did you ever get this as a kid? I did. We even had a song: “[Insert name]’s a member of the clean plate club.” My parents are technically boomers but barely, and so I got a little bit of that Depression mentality thrown at me regarding food. Now mind, I have grown to believe that that’s a good mentality–waste not, want not, all that. I think we SHOULD upcycle, repurpose, GET CREATIVE. We SHOULD use it up, wear it out, make it do, or do without. I love that saying! It makes me so happy. Not that I ever follow that, but that’s what I think we SHOULD do, anyway. 🙂

So, naturally, I have attached that work ethic to the finishing of all the food in the house instead of my actual, paid work. And here is where I am today.

My pattern is to swing back and forth from overeating to undereating and overexercising. In September, I broke my ankle–due to damage I’ve done to my bones from starvation–and for two months now, I have had to sit on my ass. That has SUUUCCKKED. Naturally, we with EDs know that it’s not worth thinking unless it’s extreme (!!) so if I can’t workout at all, then I should naturally overeat, right? Well done, Genevieve. Well done. Mission accomplished! And that’s not even a Bush era Mission Accomplished. This shit’s real. 🙂

I am trying hard to come to that middle place that I know I need to find, but these damn synapses were clearly forged in the fires of Mordor and won’t be budging for awhile. Luckily, there are no holidays to stoke these fires! Oh wait. I’m binging on Thanksgiving stuffing. And soon, Christmas cookies (even though I’m vegan and gluten free, I somehow still manage to shovel food in).

I am a freelance writer and editor and I work from home. I notice that my ED gets 20 times worse when I’m under deadline and I am coming up on some big ones. I have 4, FOUR, books to write in the next two weeks, two critiques, and a new writing coach job. I think I’m going to need a bigger boat. And that’s not even mentioning my January!

Anyway, wish me luck in getting things under control–eating wise (though not TOO much control), and task wise. I shall write a more informative, general, post much later. But in the meantime, I want to hear from you! What’s you’re poison, ED-wise? And poison is most certainly the word. What are your patterns?

OH! And I want to post a video from this lovely girl whose YouTube videos I am currently obsessed with and who actually inspired me to start this blog. You see, she talks about the inner workings of her ED which we can hear ourselves in, no matter what the age, but her stage of life is WAY different than mine. And so, I thought, how nice to start a blog for us oldies? Good goddess, I wouldn’t go back to my 20s for anything. Darling Raganmae, I am rooting for you. You are a precious precious soul. Check her out–she’s just lovely.

http://www.youtube.com/user/raganmae/videos?flow=grid&view=0

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I am a thirty-something ass kicker who also happens to have an ED. And two cats. And an awesome boyfriend, etc.

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